Last night I took more pills than listed on the back of the bottle. Basically I tried to commit suicide. I prayed to the Lord “If I wake up in the morning I have a purpose in this world.” I am here and I guess I have a purpose in this world.
Don’t know what it is. I Cannot find a job, I am falling behind in school (I am guessing due to my depression), I cannot conceive. So, what is my purpose? I do not know, so I guess I am on a journey to find my purpose on this rock hurling through space.
I guess step one can be find an outlet for my anger.
Step two, change my outlook on life
Step three, accept the things I cannot change and change what I can.
Step four, live with no regrets.
I will go and put these things into practice, I know this will be hard. So wish me luck.